Being Happy

Starting the day Logan was born, I changed.

Don't look at me like that, I am not going for the cliche here. I'm talking that I really changed.

While becoming a mother has something to do with it, it's not just that. Maybe I never fully got out of the PPD thing. Maybe I should be on meds again. Who knows. All I know is, I tend to lean towards the bitter and snappy side of things these days and I don't like that at all.

For now, I am doing my best to take the steps I need to get myself back on track again.

Step 1: Doing something that is good for me. I started Pilates at Pure Body Studio in November. I get an hour doing something that makes me happy and is good for my body and soul. I actually look forward to going back.

Step 2: Read more. I used to be a book hound but working 40+ hours a week and then being a wife and mother, reading just barely fits in. On top of reading for pleasure, I am also starting this book:

 I have read the first few chapters and I am ready to dig in like she did. In January she gets rid of mindless clutter, cleans out the closets, and makes sleep a priority. I can tell you right now, my sleep is all out of wack right now. I really need to stop at 9pm, crawl into bed, read for a little while, and then go on to sleep.

Step 3: Relax and just enjoy it! We took Logan to Preston's birthday party at Home Depot. Logan was a little all over the place but I decided to just go with it. We stopped and walked around the store so he could look at tools - more than once. In the end, we all had more fun than if I had tried to make the poor kid sit in his chair!

I'm still looking for ways to reduce my stress and learn to roll with things. One step at a time, right?