Let me ask you - is work/life balance even really achievable?
Are you (we) always just trying to "make things work?"
I feel like I am always scrambling to get all the pieces together, and all it does it create more issues for me to scramble against.
Why does it seem like if work is going great, home is a mess? and vise-versa?
Or why does the shit storm always hit at once?
This week has been baby ear infection / missed work / sleepless nights / angry client / husband leaving town / mother coming into town / need to clean the house / crazy long to do lists / dropping the ball / more sick baby / oh shit I better start planning his birthday /
Scramble Scramble Scramble.
And what happens at the end of the day? I have a glass of wine or
What happens to us that we feel the pressure to be 100% at all three of our roles?
That means you need to be 300%!
Then what? You quit your job and eat Ramen Noodles because you just dropped your lifestyle to non-existent? Are you then feeling that you are failing at having a good home life because money is so strapped?
I love my husband and baby.
I love my job.
I don't love the act of meeting the needs of everyone at once. I have this sense of failure at times that leaves me wondering why I even try..
Yes, the Zoloft helps but still... I don't want to turn to that forever.
Where is this "balance" when you get home at 5:30pm and proceed to shove play time/bath time/dinner time/ bed time into less than 2 hours? Then you still need to be a non-vegetable to interact with the husband and pets and fold laundry and clean up dinner and watch a funny tv show and..
Holy shit I am tired.