Thursday, July 28, 2011

Frumps

I have a bad bad case of the frumps.

I feel fat.

I miss my baby son all day while I am at work.

I miss my husband since he works so much and gets home late.

I seem to be extra affected by each and every thing that happens.

Too many chores.

Too little time.

Too little money.

See, I want to stay home. It's an ache in me that I need/want and it can't happen. So I drop Logan off every morning, head to work, upset.

I pick him up and I get 2 hours, if that, and a lot of that is feeding him and cooking dinner. The only quality time is weekends.

How do people balance this? How do people balance this with multiple kids?

I am thankful for all the things in my life. I am thankful that I have a great job, husband, healthy baby, and sweet friends.

So why do I feel so...

frumps?

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9 comments:

Joshua said...

I wake up the kids as I leave the house at 6:30 every morning, and I pick them up from daycare at 5:30. They go to bed at 8. So, I really only see them for almost two and a half hours every day. For what it's worth, it gets easier. Not better, but easier. I just try to comfort myself that they're being educated while I can't be with them. Have some virtual hugs.

Chloe said...

I totally understand how you feel.
I don't know what I will do when I'll have children. But the idea of being a SAHM is always there... It's so tempting. I don't know if I would be strong enough to be working without my baby(/ies) and husband by my side. I would miss them so much!
And I'm already sad because next year I'll be working from 4 to 10 pm and I'll barely have time to see my husband during the week.

Surviving Suburbia said...

I forwarding this to my husband, I think he gets forgets what it would really be like if I worked. He only see $$$. Men get grass is greener on the other side ideas to I guess. So maybe reading it from you will remind him to be grateful.
Thanks for sharing!

Sophia said...

I felt the SAME way! It gets better and then it doesn't! I learned to cook multiple meals in one evening and other small shortcuts so that I can spend the most quality time with my daughter on the weekends and evenings! You love your baby, its so hard not to have them close after being there for them everyday! It gets better!

brianandhilary620 said...

It's easier when you don't do the drop off... my husband does that, I do the pick up. But he gets picked up and home by 5:30, then to bed at 7, so that is an hour and a half during the week. Not to mention that in general, he's tired by the time, so he starts to get a bit cranky.. I just try to make the most of the time we have though and go on walks while the weather is nice and play with him.
It's okay to feel sad about these things, but one thing that really helps me is to remember that our current decisions are NOT the be all end all of our life. We can make new, different choices as life continues on.

Jennifer Kay said...

Hey Breann - already a follower! Thanks for stopping by from FTLOB. I have two little ones 2 and 4 plus I work full time. The trick is...it just becomes a way of life. You get used to it and so do they. It's all they know.

Sometimes on weekends they BEG me to go to the daycare because all their friends are there and I'm boring!

I feel like our relationship is better since we miss each other all day long. When we are together for a full week like on vacation they drive me up a wall and I scream way too much! When I only see them a few hours a night, we snuggle more..we craft more..we love more.

Susan S said...

If there is ANY way a lifestyle change could let you be at home with your little guy, I think it would be worth it... or maybe even if you could manage a part-time situation.

Matt said...

Having 3 kids are nuts...Get to talk to the two oldest a bit when I pick them up about the day. When I cook supper I lose more time, otherwise I'm outside playing with them or playing something with them. My son and I are wearing out his hotwheels track. Usually get more time later at night with the 5 mo old.

Donald said...

Part of it may be this summer's weather.

The thoughts mulling about in your head are ones that would probably be easier to think through or solve/dismiss... but this weather's UGH Weather seems to have everyone perturbed. :/

Case in point - I can normally be a little gripey, but this summer I just want to go around with a laser cannon and shoot things.